I’ve lost ten pounds from all my stress, worry, and adjusting this past month and a little. I’m even noticing that my hair is coming out more in chunks because of it.
Taking a personal day tomorrow from school because I can and really need it. I barely slept with the time change after staying up all night with friends.
Also emotions seem unbalanced again, I do so well and then get all wobbly.
Bleh, break coming in the next week will be really nice.
Now accepting applications for people to text randomly at night.
Haven’t been having bad dreams but tonight was one. All about texting him, then seeing him, and I know I’m not ready for that right now.
Guess I’ll post to tumblr instead, don’t want to wake anyone P:
I want to let my followers know that I will be writing out my feelings more in posts, so if you don’t want to see all my somewhat personal thoughts that may be depressing/sad and sometimes hopeful that it’s ok and you can unfollow me for awhile. Or stick with me. That’d be awesome.
I had some amazing days Wednesday and Thursday. Went and saw a counselor and got back on my feet with a new game plan. I had learned Monday that Cyrus was seeing someone new and that I know her. She’s amazing. It sucks, but it’s not my business anymore.
I was going to hang out with my roommates/friends on Friday and felt the best I had ever felt and then they told me they weren’t going to live with me next year. It would just be the two of them - not me.
Now, I feel like such a third wheel. We still went out which was nice but I just feel crushed, and I had been doing so well. I don’t know who to live with next year because everyone I would live with has their roommates and have everything planned out already. I’m just starting to get comfortable with myself again and then this shoots at me. I don’t know how I’d honestly do living in a place on my own or living with strangers for all of next year.
Today I hung out with my best group of friends all day and I just feel sad now that they are gone. Cyrus was in that group, and I could tell it was just fine without him and that it makes our group a little uneven and now an odd number but we’ve never been closer. I know I can tell them anything and go to them for support.
I just, want to feel good again. I am not looking for someone. I am looking for myself.
Hi everyone. Just wanted to update you all on how I’m doing. My latest posts have honestly been really depressing.
I’ve had the most amazing couple days. I went and saw a counselor at school and really got my feet back under me.
I have a game plan, finally feeling like myself, and thinking less and less of him and more oriented on how to help myself.
Just going through the motions of doing things for myself, taking it easy on my emotions, changing my environment when I start to feel worse, and becoming better situated with myself has helped so much.
I’m finally feeling happy for myself, and am doing a damn good job of it too.
Also my amazing friends and family and all the support I’ve gotten around me. Thank you all and bless everyone who has helped.